Its 7:30 pm now and I’m not so sure why I ended up doing a blog as you all call it. I’m laying down in bed and just practically typing down what pop’s up in my brain. As you keep on following through my blogs you’ll probably get an idea of who the hell this guy is and what kind of human I am. I dont have good grammar in writing and all those kind of stuff. As long as you get an understanding of what I’m writing its okay.
I’m suppose to sleep by 8:00 pm as I believe a person my age should be having around 7-8 hours of sleep. Why do I sleep 8:00pm? hmm. I guess cause I work in an Aged Care Facility and I do some kitchen work like prepare meals, setting up trolleys and wash dishes and stuff. I’m not suppose to be in by 7am but I wake up 4am every time I work there. I don’t have a car so I rely heavily on buses. And, If I do come in at work say on time by 7am, there’s just no freaking way I can finish all the task that I have to do. I’m an overseas student here in Australia, Melbourne from the Philippines and man the pressure is real. (Will share more on my next few blogs.)
Going back to today, I have not done a single productive thing. Hang on, I did throw the rubbish in the bin today so I guess it counts. (Nope I’m not a lazy bum.. just one of those days you know) I stayed in my room for most of the time today and thinking deep what is there for me the next day, weeks or years.
Its hurting to keep on thinking if its ever going to be happy the next day or going to be a shitty one. I mean, every time there’s nothing for me to do, all these painful thoughts enter my mind. I guess cause, I dont like living in a country where its all foreign to me. Here a filipino chinese guy coming to Australia hoping for a better life then lo and behold, all my dreams were just something I made up entirely. Like how I’ll find a good job here, good school and great friends. but none of it really worked out the way I imagined it to be when I came.
Again im writing down what pops up in my mind so pretty much this will be a messed up blog. I dont do this for profit or anything. I guess I just wanted to let it all out. so here I am writing here and not even sure if anyone gets to read this.
I may have to stop here cause its 7:54 now. I guess time for me to hit the hay, maybe do a couple of facebook browsing while lying down in bed and then close my eyes.
Before i do sign out for today, is blog and diary the same thing? cause i do feel like im just writing a diary and sharing this for the world to see or something. hmmmm.
See you on my next writing. Ciao.
